LOSE IT

EW LORD. My bathroom smells like bath salts, bleach, scrubbing bubbles, throw up, and jasmine oil (hair treatment)

SERIOUSLY. That is real bad. real stinky.

But I played ddr for the first time in a looooong time. It was uhm.. Fun for the first hour? The next it was just sort of like.


PLZ NO MOAR. But i needed to do it, you know?

I really like darlin keeeekiiirins room at the clinic.

I visited my friend at the clinic today. She doesnt look like she has gained weight at all. She hides her almonds and it makes me proud XD I am working out now, this is a water break. I have 395 left until 1000. After that I will move to some strength training.

I am really...really uncomfortable with the weight I have gained. I look like I did before. I really do. My mum even noticed.

I night eat. A lot. Quickly. With my eyes half closed.

Fantastic.

Seroquel gives me the munchies. But I am learning to ignore that. Haahahaha.. my muscles are twitching. They do that whenever I sit down after working out.

WELL MUSCLIES YOU HAVE QUITE A BIT MORE TO DO SO SHUT THE FUCK UP OHKEI?! None of this bullshit.

I am bringing my friend gum, because they took hers away on a random room search D: I would bring her more smokes but i cant get those.

I am an enabler. But I like it. So you can fuck it if you dont <3 Suck it. Whichever.

Back to it, now. Water has been had.

My cousin tells me how now she never eats fresh foods because they dont sell them where she works.. and she is there all day. That made me feel pretty bad. I really like my cousin.

and ALL i ever eat is fresh food. Ever. Fruits and veggies 24/7. so I feel bad that way, too.

I dont know.

Hm Hm Hm.

A new time is upon us, chillins. I am in one of those moods where you feel oddly prophetic but have nothing of importance to say. Do you know what I mean? I have neglected this horribly, and feel bad for it. Stupid thing, that. Feeling bad for an online journal.

But Neglect and abandonment do no good, you know?

Alter alter alter.

Things are different.

My sister chews gum so loud I think I may throw up.





BUT ANYWAY.

No one updates anymore XD